All That Glitters...

We had a very bad storm in my neighborhood the other day and the devastation was major. I woke up at the very moment when the thunder clapped, lightening struck, and everything went pitch black.  I got out of bed. checked everyone, and went back to sleep. At sunrise later that morning, the power was still out, trees had fallen, and there was debris everywhere. I was in awe of the devastation happening all around me.

As I looked at the fallen trees, I began to wonder how a tree as healthy and as strong could break in half or just come right out of the ground roots and all. it became clear at that moment that though the tree looked good on the outside there was something definitely dying on the inside.

Just like those trees, people tend to look good on the outside but are suffering on the inside. They are dying physically, mentally, emotionally ,and/ or spiritually.  We walk around as if everything is okay but we are troubled, bruised, and rotting. We have let the storms of life break us down and then we crumble to the ground unable to give life any more. Our foundation is unstable so our roots have nothing to hold on to. 

It's time to do some self-reflecting and realize the things that are killing us slowly from the inside out. What are those things or people that you need to let go? Have you lost yourself in your relationships or jobs? Have you been sitting on your passions? When you fall, who or what will you destroy on the way down? Think about it!!!

Hell and Beyond

All I can say is that this week has been hell on wheels. Anything and everything that could possibly happen has happened. But I must say that I am in very good spirits considering the storm that is in my life right now. My faith is definitely being tested because of all the fiery darts that are coming my way. But in the midst of the storm I continue to thank and praise my Heavenly Father for just keeping me and walking with me...as I know I am being purified and refined by the fire. When I feel I am getting weak He picks me up with His strength. I couldn't do anything without him but I praise Him because I am NOT depressed! I am in my right mind and I will survive!!! I will get through this!!! For anyone out there that is going through trials and tests, just hold on. You might bend but you wont break. The only time you fail is when you stop trying.

Reinventing Myself

In the hopes of reaching my life's dreams, I've decided to reinvent myself. ..or should I say re-adjust my mind. With my new outlook,  I will re-focus, re-purpose, and then re-surface. I'm in a space where loving and taking care of me is priority. I'm excited about the journey. There are some people that will come along and then there are some people that I have to leave behind. Either way I am moving forward... on to bigger better and awesome things in my life

Poetry in Session

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Who gave you permission to acquisition my love? of all the beings on earth i now birth endless emotions causing commotions between heart and brain. going against the grain, i rearrange my atmosphere leading to the world premier of us. on opening night we created breathless components that allowed priceless moments to enter. and the center pieces together two separate lives now one. intertwining souls, accepting roles, reaching goals that were mission impossible solo like michaelangelo we paint portraits as we  coordinate, collaborate, and commemorate newness.  we mesh like fish net stockings knocking down barriers that are carriers of obstacles in our way. if we run away together we could be voluntary castaways in a love affair that declares everything else as  background noise. rolls royce has nothing on the  caliber of this relationship. check the  transcript...four point o although friend or foe might hate i anticipate intimidation tactics but like a chiropractic visit don't get it twisted my mind's eye is wide open though words unspoken i see you and this isn't an interview. i have no questions just actions. i get no    satisfaction from time wasted so i waste none on those games just remain in your lane and let us be free without added debris. we are planted like a tree by the water. we shall not be moved and this message has been approved by FREE...


Love the Journey!

I Dare Me

As a child, I loved a good dare. I was fearless and would accept any dare thrown my way. Well, I'm all grown up and that fearless child has gone away. I miss those days when I would take risks. This is why I am making the following declarations: 

I dare to be me

I dare to love wholeheartedly

I dare to speak life into all situations

I dare to continue to move forward leaving the past where it is

I dare to go after what I want for my life

I dare to complete the vision no matter what obstacles surface

I dare to forgive those who have wronged me regardless of an apology

I dare to write until my fingers hurt

I dare to speak from the heart

I dare to find the strength in my weaknesses

I dare to believe in me

I dare to stay focused!!!

I will recite these words everyday until they are embedded in my soul. I implore you to live every day like  it is your last. Be fearless, be motivated, be you....I Dare You!

The New Year

Another year has come and gone and I realized that most of what I set out to do, was never even attemepted. I started off great and then after a couple of weeks, I forgot about them. I had every intenetion of completing the list but somehow, when life hit, it just didn't seem that important. That is the reason why I am all done with resolutions. I will begin to look at evey morning as a new beginning. It's another chance that I have been blessed to get it right. 

So I made no list this year and do not plan on it for the years to come. Now I am not saying that I do not have any goals but I will not wait until January first to try to accomplish them. I am determined to do what I have set my mind to and I will continue to press until I get there. Every brick that is thrown my way will be used to build another level to climb onto. I am looking at all things with a silver lining instead of the black cloud. 

Last year was a trying time for me but I refuse to live in the past so I am moving forward...step by step! 

Why Are My Roses Dying?

I was reading an article about roses and the analogy I received was shockingly similiar to relationships. Don't ask why I was reading articles about roses. I don't have a rose bush or anything, don't plan on growing any ( I have a black thumb not green), and I am not really into flowers anyway. According to the article, there were 8 reasons why a rose garden would die.  I found it to be very enlightening. Let me know what you think by leaving a comment.

1.Fungus

According to the article, "Fungal infections can be devastating to roses. Several different types of fungal infections can be common to roses, including black spot, powdery mildew and downy mildew. If you live in an area with high humidity and excessive rainfall, you may notice black circles or blotches on the leaves of the roses, indicating black spot fungus. If you live in an area with dry days and moist, cool nights, you may notice a powdery substance on leaves and the foliage beginning to curl. Without intervention, the rose bush with fungus will probably die. Keys to improving the fungal infection include pruning away all infected foliage and discarding them in the trash."

Read more: http://www.redbeacon.com/hg/why-are-my-roses-dying/#ixzz3OSyHQOab

Just as fungus can be devastating to roses, so can those things that represent it in a relationship. Fungus equals lying, cheating, lack of communication, nagging, complaining, criticism....the list goes on.... These are the things that infest the relationshiip causing it to die and crumble.  As these things start to manifest in the relationship it leaves blemishes that can now be seen on the outside. (Arguments, silent treatment, mental and physical abuse) Without intervention, the relationship will surely die.

It is best to "prune" those things that are threatening the relationship before it gets to the point of no return. Get rid of the excessive negativity and do not allow your relationship to dry up.